Spring

(Before reading this please ignore any grammar mistakes I have made, it is late and this computer is hateful)

Apparently January was the last time I made any updates to the blog. I know I am doing a terrible job at keeping it up.  At the same time, I am glad we are too busy to have time to sit down some days, I love to always be on the go with these two.  

Other than a few trips to the beach and Gatlinburg, nothing much has happened around here to post about. Our court date is this Thursday, April 23; which means last week we had a meeting to go over our current plan for the boys.  In our meeting Kyle and I had the opportunity to speak with the permanency specialist (who I believe chose us for the boys) and get an idea of what will happen once the termination is finished. Right now the termination is set for early June, of course any kind of set back can change that date.  Once that is day there is a few steps for getting ready to adopt, 30 days after termination we can file to adopt and then follow the plan from there. Right now we are hoping to be finished by the end of October, but of course I am praying anything that can get dates moved a little closer will happen.

Usually I am the more optimistic one, but since we have had the boys I have been so cautious with everything.  While it may seem like this process is a matter of dates and certain number of days, file a few things here and there; it is just so much more than that. There are so many little things that can set us back, and sometimes these set backs can cost us weeks or months.  

We do have an attorney to represent us for the adoption, which is so awesome! We have been able to speak with him some to learn some new information about this process.  This Thursday is just a routine court day to review the current plan, but I have been praying so hard that something amazing and miraculous will come of it. I already know that God can do some amazing things, but I want these boys to look back one day and realize just how great He is. 

Just like our last court date, this week leading up my emotions have been on a big roller coaster. Like I said, its not a special date or anything, but I get so nervous.  Also, this week I have come across some information from their life before us and when they went into custody.  It is so hard for me to imagine them going back to that situation. Although June is just two months away it feels like two years and the mommy in me wants to protect my children from anything bad, but in our case it is completely out of our hands.

This post may have sounded very negative and sad, but we couldn't be any happier.  With these meetings and court dates that we update everyone come a lot of emotion that we try to keep to ourselves to keep from always sounding like a big ball of depression. On my blog though, I feel like it's okay to be real with these feelings no matter if one person reads it or one million people read it.  

On a happier note, like I mentioned earlier, we made two more trips to Myrtle Beach, a trip to Gatlinburg, and a day at the Knoxville Zoo  Aunt Jamie spent her Spring Break here in Tennessee with the boys, which was so fun. We have been potty training for about a month now, and are almost to making it through the night without accidents.  Their speech has improved tremendously and they are learning more everyday.  Currently their favorite word is "Jo Jo", which is short for Matti-Jo. I swear she is there favorite person, but also because she loves them so much!

I know I say this every time, but hopefully these next several weeks I can keep everything updated a little better, especially with us having so many important dates coming up. And I promise the next post will be more upbeat and exciting.  I hope to be able to share more of their progress and the funny little things they do to make us smile.

We love everyone (even if its just a few) that reads this, because this is where we can be more open and honest about everything. And we love all of our family & friends that make up our awesome support system and help us to give these boys the best little life they could possibly have! 

Oh! I almost forgot, we have decided that when it comes time in this process, we are going to change the boys' middle names to give them something from us (besides our last name). We want it to be really good, so that if they ever choose, they can use it as the name they go by.  Of course I have a list that I love, but only a couple of those match Kyle's list that he loves. So we need your help, send us any idea of a good, handsome middle name.  Something classy, yet unique and sweet.  To get us those names: 1) post in a comment below, 2) send via email to shanoah.hewitt@gmail.com with subject: Hewitt Adoption Names, or 3) post them to Twitter or Instagram with #HewittAdoption.